Life is a little insane right now!

just applied to FSU's limited access advertising program.

Now i just have to wait and see what happens.

Taking some tough classes, with tougher professors.

Wish Me Luck!

Ill write more in here soon i promise...

not enough hours in the day

its been a while

(i apologize now for all of the typos)

my life has been crazy..

internship at zimmerman is going great!...

im learning a lot..

meeting a lot of new people..

and really getting a good "sneak peek" of my chosen carreer...

I'm finally (still a process) coming to terms with myself...

ive spent the better part of my life fighting who i was..

and making my life miserable....

im almost happy and im almost not ashamed..of me

Im also learning that its impossible to be nice and like everyone

if you know me, you know that its hard for me to dislike people or make enemies.

but ive realized that there are some pretty crummy people in tallahassee

SAD PATHETIC LONELY INSECURE MALICIOUS BITTER TIRED

"people"

and i dont need them in my life

if you wanna hate me or not believe what i say..

go ahead ..you really wont bother me at all..

ill just forget you existed..and life will be easier that way

you wont be an enemy!...i dont need or want or desire enemies or drama...

you will just be forgotten...

and some of you already have been..

if you think i need to grow up your sadly mistaken..and about intelligent as a twig.

lastly...

if you have anything you want to know about me...good, bad, scary, questions...anything!

ask me...not a friend..not an acquantaince...not a co worker...

ME...

im pretty sure that besides my parents im the best authority on myself...

thanks for dealing with my crazy busy summer...

friends i miss you....ill spread my time out more evenly...

call me

text me

ill get back to you i swear...

love you all...well most of you...

matt

btw...thats me at zimmerman ...im officially super in love with macs...even more than before!

I am Me....and im almost happy

i've spent a lot of time being hard on myself...

i hated my body..

i hated my looks..

i hated my hair..

i hated a lot..

I would look at my friends and others and be so jealous of their body types, their ability to fit into any type of clothes, and their ability to eat and drink whatever, and not gain a pound. I was so tired of always being the "fat" friend...always a friend, but never anythign more....after a while that midset took a very hard toll on my mind, body and spirit...i couldnt take it anymore, every time i looked in the mirror, i would get so angry at myself..i hated what i saw, and i didnt know what to do...i run..I lose a little then hit a wall...i eat healthy...i lose a little and hit a wall...i do muscle work...i lose a little and hit a wall..i dont lose weight easily (never have, and never will) and it drives me crazy....BUT today I just came to a realization...I am tired of being tired. I am tired of not being happy about myself..i deserve way better from myself....i may not be the hottest guy around...i may have curly hair that is rebellious beyond belief...and i may have some extra baggage all over...but im matt...and i love it...I need to stop trying to be better in hopes others will notice and say something..FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE i am slmost happy with the way i am...that doesnt mean im content, but im happy...my hair is way i finally like...my body isnt perfection but im not sporting a keg and super ba donk a donk either...and my clothes are hot, so if you dont like them you can kiss it... i dont know if this happiness will last, but it feels "right" right now...

i dont know if you can tell much difference but heres a pic of a while ago and now

around christmas

and this is now

i dont know if you can tell a difference

but i can

and im happy

thank you for my supprotive friends, who give me nothing but positive energy

and those of you ive worked so hard to look better for...im sorry you dont know what youre missing out on....

thank you

sincerely

Matthew Michael Ramage

P.s. sorry if there are a ton of typos i suck at typing...

practicing timing with the camera...not trying to model lol..

p.s. im over this naturaul aluminum free deodoornat..it fights odor but the sweat isnt being hidden..i cant take it......bring on the active ingridients...

whaddayathink

I am tired...i am ready

tired of gas prices.

tired of pressures.

tired of shady politics.

tired of working for way less than i deserve.

tired of being fat.

tired of being torn between friends.

tired of feeling trapped here..even though i probably wouldnt leave if given the chance.

tired of making amazing friends and then losing them to moving.

tired of being misunderstood.

tired of always having to be there.

tired of feeling like a shame

tired of being so confused about so many things.

ready for my intersnhip to start

ready for others to see my potential

ready for something better than skateworld

ready for a new lease on life

ready to be my own person

ready for money to make that last thing possible

ready for work

ready for helping others

ready for an escape

come with me?

FOR SARAH!

you wanted black?

here you go....

by L.A.M.B.

let the drooling commence......now..

WHAT I WANT!

1. Razr2 v8--- im sick of my sidekick...i just want a phone...a clean shiny trendy slim phone..the sidekick is dying on me anyway... i got a replacement balck basic razr for right now..btu when feb rolls around and its time for me to renew my contract....IM PICKING THE MOST AMAZING PHONE EVER...not sure what that will be yet

2. MIEHANA sneaker by L.A.M.B

I pretty much am in love with these...from the snake skin..to the white on white chain print along the rubber..to the straps..to the hi tops....GIMME NOW...oh and did i mention that thwy are by l.a.m.b? which i won one pair of shoes from...but more importantly..thats gwen stefanis brand.my hero...GIMME

3. I want for sarah howard to buy these...and own them..and be amazing..i think she could pull um off...eh?

4. lastly..i want to go to a concert...a good one... preferably...

M.I.A. thats definately one of my top 10 things to do asap.... that would make my life..

thats all...now all i need is some money! anyone wanna help?